I don't feel too great right now. and I seriously find it impossible to be left alone in this fucking city. I need space. I need room to breathe. It's not even about being in bad mood usually, although the more people ask about it - then yea okay, I guess I am in a fucking snappy bad grumpy isolated mood. okay? If I said I dont want to hang out today and said I need to be alone, it probably means I dont want to have dinner or watch the movie with you. and really, it's not even about you or anyone, i have serious random ups and downs and will be probably be that crazy bitch if it comes to it when I'm feeling this dark. it's difficult for me see or talk to anyone because I dont want to feel bad about my actions later. there really is nothing that will help me but to LEAVE ME ALONE and let me deal with myself. at least for one day. or the majority of it.
